09/12/08 心隐隐作痛。。

今天当你对我说了一句“对不起”，我就知道我应该放开手了！但是我也很想对你说一句“对不起”！！
对不起我造成你很大的压力。。请原谅我的一时之“错”！愿你开心。。。

重来

曾经的你是我全部
在朋友面前常爱提起的名字
最喜欢你笑的样子
彷佛一个单纯快乐的孩子
如今一切历历在目
你已成为我伤心的往事
那段有你有梦的日子
我真的很想可以再开始

虽然过去都已飘逝
我仍期待重来一次
好好将所有感觉从头收拾
再回到我和你的昨日

我真的很想让我和你
回到过去重新再来再爱一次
我会在乎我们的故事
改写我们的历史
为你轻轻擦去眼角的泪珠
真的很想让我和你
回到过去重新再来再爱一次
我会珍惜我们的最初
不想看你为我哭
让你陪孤独说不尽心事

with love,
ling ling (09/12/08)

Finally..

Finally.. I realised who I am exactly!! .........
Someone may feel shocked especially THE ONE..
But THE ONE just couldn't accept who I am...
Just kicked me away immediately...
The word-- RIDICULOUS -- really HURT me so much.. SO MUCH..
Do I need to EVADE?? Or face the FACT??!!
I don't know..!! Who can tell me?? .. What and how should I do now ??

~~~~SADNESS~~~~

Ling

请给我一封信

夜很冷，在这清冷的夜晚，遥远地方的你是否安然无恙，是否能感觉到我对你不断的思念，分开的日子，你可好吗？

我好想收到来自你那边的一封信，哪怕只是片言只语，让我知道你很好，知道你在发信的时候正在想我。这样，我就是世界上最幸福的人了！

请给我一封信，请在信的字头呼唤我的名字，用你最温柔的声音，那不是一般意义上的称呼，那是你频频呼唤着的名字。

“我想你”这三个字是世界上最简单而最幸福的字了，我没有渴求过别的字眼，唯有从你嘴里说出这三个字的时候，我知道已经足够了。

我总是把电话放在最靠近我的地方，唯恐漏掉任何一则你的信息，我期盼有来自你的问候，好想听到你的声音，醇厚的磁音像一杯烈酒，迷醉我思念的心，散在空气里，经久不退。

请给我一个证据，告诉我你来过，存在过，并且爱过，就像云冈石窟的大佛，见证着沧桑的存在。

请给我一个悬念，让我每天用期盼的心等待下一个期盼的到来，当我翻看这样的信，心似乎隐隐地疼，哦，那是喜悦和欢欣交织的疼，轻轻地打开，数着你的字，像是抚摸文物一样地珍贵。

但不要重复那些一遍遍同时发给好多人的信，虽然朗朗上口，可那只是客套的问候，只要手轻轻一按，便可以发向每个城市的每个角落，每一个人。我不要，我只要你给我一个人的信，哪怕只是一个简单的“想你”。

请给我一个永不厌倦的话题，只有爱你的人才可以读懂的内容，让我在白发缺齿时还可以读懂的信。

而如果，如果，我不得不离开你了，那么至少还有你的信，你只给我的信，刻着你也曾眷恋的真实，说着我的痛，还有那年月色正浓时我们正相爱着。。。。。

请给我一封信，你给我一个人的信！

Last Day of ICCC !!!

Today is the last day of ICCC.. I am now at home. Waiting for the next appointment at 8pm. Not sure whether is he going to turn up?! The path of being an insurance agent is really very tough. People keep on cheatting on you which telling you that they're interested in your plan but indeed not. People keep on delaying the appointment. People keep on avoiding you without answering your calls. Actually we (INSURANCE AGENT) aren't so scary ..ok?? We are very steady. We will still treat you as a friend .. Still treat you as good as previous. BUT why so many people still keep on criticizing on us and avoiding us? Our job is just to analyse those risks that you might facing at the moment to you and giving you the solutions to overcome the risks.. Is it so SCARY ??

I felt that these few days really are annoying days for me! Keep on arguing this and that with hubby. At first he requested to break then finally ok already. Yesterday was my turn to request to break but refused by him. So our relationship is currently still keep on going but really don't know when is the STOP point while those issues still havent settled yet!! Slept at around 4am after having quarrel. That's why exhausted today!!!

If there is a FRIEND to hold my hand.. If there is a FRIEND to accompany me.. If there is a FRIEND to assist me.. If there is a FRIEND who can let me rely.... IF.... IF... just IF.... If YOU are here for me.. That will be GREAT !!!... But ......

with love,
Ling Ling