Finany I was unable to suppress my depression..

Still managed to calm myself while in the meeting just now. Online after came back to home. Viewed facebook and saw that again. DAMN SHIT feeling.. It's HURT you know??

Finally, TEARS keep rolling dowm my face.. HEART really painful.. Do you know that?? You HURT me silently but deeply.. I was accepting silently but painfully all along.. I really don't hope to annoy you actually but I just don't know whether I should or shouldnt voice out. I just don't hope to be like your ex who keep on annoying and suspecting you.. I DIDN'T.. seriously.. I TRUST YOU all along the way. BUT do you know that your behavior will hurt me sometimes? Did you think of my feeling while doing all these??
I was deeply HURT because of I was busy doing this and that here to make sure our bright future but you're there to do something regardless about my feeling.. Can't you be just understanding?? Can't you think of whether will you hurt me if do this??

Sometimes I will think of "NEVER MIND".. just forget about it and left unsaid.. BUT will this way work? Will you appreciate with what I have done with keeping silent and let you have FREEDOM? I am not going to control you but just atleast think of me before anything happen. Ok?? What I expect is just that simple. Anyway, take care.

By,
Mandy

I felt very depressed..

Just back from work. Had been standing for 5 hours to promote the credit cards. I was really depressed the whole day but I still had to treat the customers nicely. Smiled gently to them although got rejected. BUT my heart was bleeding indeed. Try not to think of the issue while working but it's just beyond my control.. Keep figuring in my mind.. My eyes filled with tears while this happened but I still had to control myself and make sure that the tear won't roll down my face.

HURT!!... SPEECHLESS!!!.... SILENT!!!!........

Being silent is a bad attitude? Being "don't mind" is suffering? Why don't you be understanding with my SILENCE? Why I keep on maintaining a proper distance with others BUT you don't?? Am I complaining right now?? Are you beginning to get annoyed with what I feel??

Haiz.. Just forget about it. Maybe I just don't have the right to control or disturb YOUR PERSONAL LIFE.

I THINK IT CAN ONLY TAKE SOME TIME FOR THE WOUNDS TO HEAL. That's it !!!

By,
Mandy